Saturday, November 17, 2007

Why are we being stigmatized?

I hate movies with unrealistic cancer themes. Like Jack Neo's I Not Stupid and Royston's 881. They both ended with someone suffering from cancer. People who watched the shows think that cancer is a incurable diseased and look at you like a dead person when you are just beginning the fight. I dislike how so many shows like to depict poor teenage girls who undergo treatment and will go mentally unstable when they dropped their hair due to chemo. And how they screamed and cried in the bathroom like some weaklings. And for some reason, they will be in a wheelchair and soon die. (remember this show from 10 yrs ago called Yang Guang Lie Che where Guo Shuxian's character got cancer, went emotionally unstable due to hair lost, and eventually died????)
And what about the fund raiser for cancer patients? What's with all those scenes with all those sickly people in bed? All those false impressions just to stir your emotions to make you donate ur money.

Cancer people DO NOT want people to think of them as a sick person. They want to be remembered as FIGHTERS. As any other normal person. And there are people who continued their normal life while having chemo or radiotherapy. Why dun the media feature people like that?

Having a relative event soon and my mum wanted me to use my hair to cover my swells. She dun wan people to know. Not that I want too, but I just think that if media has not stigmatized cancer people so much, it wouldn't be so much of a taboo now. Taboo as in... people often associate cancer with death. How do cancer people fight well if people are subconsciously cursing them in their mind?

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Anyway, been drinking the chinese medicine that my chinese sensei prescribed. My lymph nodes are going down in size. I do hope that it will go down to it's normal size and my blood count will be back to normal. I am very happy that the medication is working so well. Best thing about it is, it don't taste bitter like most chinese medicine. In fact, it tasted quite good. :D
Feel so lucky. <3

Saturday, November 03, 2007

I just feel very strongly that...

I just feel very strongly that I am not meant to die young and be sickly.

I am always healthy and never get sick easily. Even now with my white blood cell count being so abnormally high due to the cancer cells, (normal is 4-10, mine is 21), I am still healthier than my colleagues who gets sick more frequently than me.

And I know I can surely overcome this. My immune system, my body, my mind, my soul will not allow the taking over of a parasite, because I am such a competitive and stubborn person, my pride will not allow it.

Just another obstacle to be overcome, to be conquered.

I will not die young. I will win this battle.