Thursday, May 29, 2008

Welcome to Heaven, Molly!

That will be the first thing you hear when you open your eyes, Molly.

For now you are in a better place where there's no cancer, no pain and suffering. Where you become an angel too and playing among the stars.

Death is not an ending. It is just a beginning for many beautiful things. It is also a beginning for other Wonderwomen to take over that noble job of yours of encouraging and inspiring Wonderwomen around the world.

For you, Molly, we will be strong. We will fight like a true blue Wonderwomen and let the Wonderwomen spirit go on forever.

So don't worry Molly. Be at peace now and go play with the angels. You are always on our minds.

Love,
Fayth

Thursday, May 22, 2008

chemo cycle 1... FIGHT

So here I am in SGH, and just had 2 days of chemo. Fludarabine in the afternoon and cyclophosmide in the evening. Tomorrow I am going to have Rituximab the whole day together with the other F & C drug.

So far it's been ok, though I heard that people usually wont have side effect till days later. So I shall keep my fingers crossed. :x

Took some pix and will post it up. Guess this is the first time I am posting pix of myself up. Haha.

It's 11.25pm now and the lights are already off... in fact it is out at 10pm. Quite like a military camp. ^^

But the nurses are nice and I like my room mates so I am still happy with my stay. If anyone were to go for chemo for haematology, I would definitely say GO for SGH!
Ward 72 nurses are really caring and cheerful. :)

Ok, will update again. ^^

Friday, May 09, 2008

live strong

I am back from the hospital. had bone marrow aspirate, CT scan and some blood test and now waiting for results. Doc wanna make sure mine is really CLL and not Mantle Cell Lymphoma, which is much more agressive and treatment has to be more agressive too.

I have a new funky doctor! The previous one was too arrogant and sloppy so I decided to change. Was kind angry with him for now giving me the necessary test to confirm mine is CLL and sending me to chemo.

But this new funky female doc is very nice. She helped me do my bone marrow aspirate, which I heard from some patient that as a consultant, she doesn't have to personally do it for me. And she was so much better than the TTSH one i did that gave me much trauma. Really thankful to have this lady as my doctor now. *cougheyecandycough*

And really thankful to HB who always stayed by my side for a good 3 days when I am in there. Really grateful and thankful for the company. And my colleagues as well who stayed with me till 11pm on the 2nd night.

The drip and all the scans were a painful process but all is bearable. I cried a bit here and there especially when my mum sms me to ask me if I slept well the night before and that she missed me and love me.

And I actually cried during the CT scan it was really painful when the flush the needle used for the contrast and was wondering once again, why do I hv to go thru this. Haha.

I miss my partner. She was hospitalised in spain due to bowel inflammation. O_o
She said cos she missed me too much. haha.

The results will be out next friday, then in to do chemo. Wish me luck! i hope it's really just plain old CLL. GOD LET ME HAVE CLL PLEASE!

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Tomorrow

I'll be admitted to SGH tmr to start my treatment.

I'm quite mentally prepared now. Just waiting to see what will happen.

But after this incident, i realised how much kindness there are in this world. I got to know a cancer survivor who accompanied me to the doctor and even to get my laptop. I got great support from my colleagues and bosses who are understanding and encouraging. I have a lot of support from my friends and lastly my family members.

I know I can fight this. Wish me luck people. If I manage to stay online in SGH, i'll write more.

tata