Hope for Life

looking back 2008

If you want me to describe 2008, I can only say it is a year full of unpredictable events.

I was asked to go through chemo, changed a specialist and did chemo that lasted 6 mths. I changed department. My CLL went away and I had a normal looking face again, something I could not quite remember for the past 1 yr.

My ex boss got cervical cancer stage 3 in June. Spoke to her on MSN and she was still strong and cheerful. Suddenly I never hear from her anymore and my ex colleague suddenly told me her sitution was bad. Were supposed to visit her but didn't manage to (maybe cos I was too scared), and before I knew it, she passed away on boxing day.

My JC friend got thyroid cancer and went for surgery. She was pregnant while all this happened but she is still so strong and positive. Her baby is due next Feb. After that she is going for another surgery.

Actor Chor Chew Meng got diagnosed with spinal muscular atrophy. I think everyone heard about him

2008 is a year which taught me that life is too unpredictable and it really can be very short. I no longer wish to plan for long term event, nor be very bothered about what is to come for the following year or next 5 years because seriously, life is about enjoying and appreciating the moment. No point planning and worrying about what has yet to come, for you never know if it will even come.

But having said that, I do not see 2008 as a bad year. On the contrary, I enjoyed 2008. I realised that there are so much love around. During chemo, so many people showered me with their love and concern. I feel really blessed. And after chemo, I feel so much better about myself and all aspect of my life. I really love my life now and appreciate everything and everyone.

I just need to kick that quick tempered bad habit of mine to be perfect. :3

Thus 2008 is a year for me to learn more about myself, and all the people around me. Those who really are concern for me and those who doesnt. And I can also roughly guess who will be the one who will cry for me during my wake if that day comes. I also learn to not take things too seriously and to let go and move on with the things we have no control over.

Dear friends who are still reading this blog. Thank you all for all the concern and love for the past year.

I love you all.

posted by Fay @ 5:38 AM