This is the era for change
I don't want to be a bonsai treeA teacher from RI came out in his blog a week ago claiming he is gay and had now started the whole Singapore debating on his actions.
His students are very supportive, saying 'To the outside world, the teacher is a gay person. To us, he is and always will be our teacher.'
And of course, those people who are making the most noise are the parents who know nothing abt him.
I guess this how homophobia is all about. You do not know anyone who is homosexual. Thus you fear the unknown. You alienized them and demonized them, making them the Other.
But if there is a chance that let you know someone as a friend first, and later found out that he or she is a gay, that make it a lot easier to accept the person. Because the unfamiliar becomes the familiar.
While I was watching Hairspray, I realised that we are in the exact scenerio as the blacks in USA in 1960s. They were discriminated because they were thought to be of a lower class and the white is not supposed to mix with the black. And the less you mix with them, the more these people become an unknown, and the more fear this unknown creates.
If Martin Luther King, Jr never given the world famous speech "I have a dream." Perhaps the racism felt in USA then will still be felt today.
But the world has changed and it is no longer so. The black and whites live in harmony.
And this can be the case, for heterosexual and homosexual.
It can change and this is the era for change. The internet age, the era of globalization, the era for tolerance, and then understanding. Like MM LKY said in Berita Harian, that the top 20% Singaporeans are exposed to changes and are more susceptable to change. But it is the 20% heartlanders that is more conservative and he has to make sure that progress will not be too jarring for these 20% of the people.
And perhaps, with Otto Fong's "I don't want to be a bonsai tree", Singapore may have a chance to walk towards a more tolerant and understanding future, where understanding of the once "unknown" can be reached and acceptance can finally be achieved as one, united nation.
I can see my jawline again!
Went to see a chinese sensei and realised it is the same one Molly sees! What a small world! Or should I say, this sensei must be really reliable to have so many people recommending her.
So anyway, I had a very terrible rash on friday. My face was swollen, my neck, armpit, back, groin, basically all areas where the lymph nodes are and my back. I went to see a doctor and took a jab. It didn't work quite well. But after medication, the rash began to go down. So that night I slept and when I woke up the next day, VIOLA!!! My lymph nodes all through out my body had decreased! They had become smaller and softer and I can feel and touch my jawline again! I can finally remember how I look like before the lymph nodes swell around my jaw which made me look fat. I finally see my thin face again!
You would't believe my happiness. Such things are so normal for people with good health that they will not look in the mirror and be glad that their jaw is of the normal size. But for me, I can really see the difference. I was very grateful and was wondering is the rashes a way to detox the body? Quite a scary way to detox, but then it sure worked!
I must hold more faith and hope from now on. And believe that miracles do happen. And trust that there is a way to live with this, healthily and normally. I will be praying and will be trying my best to sleep earlier.
I miss my jawline... I am really very happy. It's such a meagre thing but it means so much to me. Really. Thank you, to whoever that is blessing me. Thank you.
Cancer always happen to good people
Went to a chinese sensei and that was what she told me. "Cancer only happen to good people. You seldom hear those fierce looking, bad people get cancer. It only bully nice people."
Haha, kinda suit my theory of why positive people are always the one getting cancer. I remember reading a manga about this guy that got into an accident and lost his legs, and the doctor say that heaven chose you to go through this ordeal because he knows that you will definitely be able to overcome it.
So well, those few people I know who get cancer when their very young are really very nice people. Nice mother, good wife, good daughter, have lotsa friends. (I may not look like it, but I have quite a lot of friends too. :DDD)
Sensei also told me to meditate and pray to Kuanyin Bodhisattva since I am a buddhist. It was said that a little girl of 6 who has a rare case of leukemia got better after praying to Goddess of Mercy for 3 months. And it's true, when I used to pray to her to request for the swell to go away, it does help. So I am gg pray to her more often and not be lazy.
Sensei tells me to get my histology fr the hospital... which is a dread because doctors sometimes are unwilling to give it to the patients. So hopefully the next time I go, I will be able to get a copy from my doctor.
She also tell me to sleep early.. which is a biggest boo boo cos I like to sleep late. Have to slowly adjust to it...
Had been sleepin a lot recently. I sleep for 9-10 hours these few days. Very scary. Wonder how I will be able to take the early hours once my job starts. But kinda excited. It's a fresh beginning. :)
If we hold on together
there are so many things in life that I wanna hold on to. And most importantly with my love ones. And even though the battle is on and one day, I will hv to go through the same ordeal as many has gone through before, I will win the fight, as long as we hold on together.
Sorry to my significant other, for being pessimistic on the 31st of Aug. It's 1 years since my first op of my life. It marks the beginning of my fight and resilent to overcome all this.
Why me?
Because life chooses me to be a survivor.
